I Abject is an auto-biographical representation of my vulnerabilities and abjections surrounding western ideas of beauty. I have long struggled with body image issues that have produced both positive and negative effects on my life. In our society, an individual who is deemed “beautiful” is more likely to be offered opportunities than someone who is not. However, maintaining this beauty has come with a price, and the associated pressures have caused me to mutilate natural aspects of myself. I believe that the expression of this struggle is represented through my desire to create moments of tension and gravity that ultimately lay camouflaged by beauty.
The use of foam represents bodily disgust, like the excreting pus from an open wound. This idea is starkly camouflaged by the foam’s soft and luscious qualities, dainty pinks, and warm texture of the velvet and fur.